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Let us discuss a few things.

Let us discuss the idea of entitlement, along with the ideas of 'friendzone' and 'rape culture'. They work together in the following way: I believe I am entitled to a woman instead of being friendzoned because of rape culture. Rape culture is why I blame myself for what happened years ago. Rape culture is my father suggesting that someone shouldn't be walking home alone at night. We blame the victim. Surely, the perpetrator must have been exonerated in some fashion. After all, women are the lesser. Women are supposed to be sexual creatures available for men's pleasure and anything else they desire is second place.

On Friday, a man shot and killed seven, wounding thirteen more, because he believed that he was entitled to a girl. This is the culture we live in. This is the idea that 'nice guys finish last', that if a girl doesn't want to date a guy, it's the girl's fault. Even in this day and age, women are assumed to be subservient. People like Bill O'Reilly play the victim card and say that a certain girl shouldn't be walking around late at night and speculate on what she was wearing. As a society, we are supposed to feel sorry for the perpetrator, because they must be the wronged party.

Hell, the case with the Steubenville football team proves that. Look at how CNN covered it. "These boys had their whole lives ahead of them." YES AND THEN THEY RAPED AN INNOCENT GIRL. The boys are not innocent. They stopped being innocent the moment they decided they were going to abuse a girl for their selfish pleasure. Yet the media considers them darlings because they're rich white boys. Never mind that the girl's life is ruined.

The fear pervades our society. Rape victims are afraid to speak out. People complain that people file fake rape reports. Even for the few that do, there are thousands who never speak out. It's a huge problem in the military. We are not as civilized as we'd like to believe, when women and men have to hide from a brutal attack because they will be harangued for it.

This is our nation. This boy had three guns, three, and they were all legally registered to him. Guns are readily available in this country and the gun lobbyists want to ensure this remains the case. No matter how many shootings occur, and how often the words 'latest shooting' follow that news, no one makes any definitive moves to prevent it. No one stops and says, "Maybe this one should be the last." No one has taken a stance the way EU has, because, hey, the gun lobbyists along with all the other corrupt lobbyists control our government.

We need to take a stand. We need public outrage and outcry to drown out the siren call. Maybe then something will change. Maybe then we'll look at the next incident and say, "This will be the last one."

Mar. 10th, 2014

The cat fell gravely ill on Friday. I stayed up all night with her; every time I laid back down, she cried for me. I clasped her little paw with one hand and she clasped my hand with her other front paw. She cried and I comforted her. It was the worst night of my life. She was so miserable and I wished I had the courage to help her end it.

The only thing that gave me any measure of comfort was that at nine a.m. on Saturday, the vet office would open and we could hopefully bring Belle there to be euthanized. When Dad called, they told him to wait until noon. It was unbearable. Belle kept crying out, I hadn't slept, and I felt so miserable.

Dad decided to take watch with her and I took a nap. When I woke up an hour later, she was gone. She fought for over a day. Dad buried her about twenty feet away from Ariel and Onyx. (Jade, our other cat, was euthanized at the vet's office over 24 years ago). He had a hard time finding earth that wasn't permafrost or otherwise hard as a rock.

I don't often see my father cry, but both my parents were reduced to tears. Hell, typing this up is making me tear up. God, I loved that cat. She was such a sweetheart. And she loved me so much. I was never that close to Ariel.

A few hours after Dad buried her, he said that we should start on Monday looking for another cat. This was too soon for me, because, to be honest, I'm not over Belle. And I didn't think it was fair to get another cat so soon--waiting two weeks to get Belle after Ariel passed away was hard. That felt like agony. This...this was my trying to get used to not having a cat in the house, because I didn't want another cat who wouldn't be like Belle.

Nonetheless, I scoured to find calicos. Dad likes calicos. I wanted a tabby because I like tabbies. I also wanted, if we were going to get two cats, littermates. Most of the cats I located belonged to shelters that required a stringent background check, including home visitations (that Dad strictly objected to) prior to adopting. He didn't want to wait--I think he felt guilty over Belle's death. He hadn't taken her to the vet in some time before she fell ill. So I decided on a particular cat located in Randolph Animal Shelter.

Randolph is in Morris County, but it's not near my house. Distance wise, it's about 30 minutes from the house--about as far as Fair Lawn is to me. So it's about 20-25 miles from the house. However, Mom had an endocrinologist appointment in Denville, which is about a third of the way toward Randolph. So Dad decided to pack the two cat carriers, in case we walked out with two cats, and we left Denville for the animal shelter after the doctor.

It turned out that the cat I wanted, Momma Bell, was ineligible for adoption because there'd been some sort of outbreak. She, along with a bunch of other cats, were in quarantine. Dad was trying to find another calico to adopt. Meanwhile, a black cat with white paws and a white underbelly had claimed me. I was petting her and when I put my purse and coat down, she rested on them like they were now hers.

We inquired about adopting her, after Dad had given up his inquiries about the calicos (Momma Bell was ineligible, the other calico we saw was being adopted in a couple weeks and wasn't exactly friendly anyway, and the third wasn't up for adoption yet, plus she was grossly overweight). One of the women there mentioned that Mittens has a sibling and that they both came from a hoarding house, so they're used to other cats around. She said that they tried adopting Jingles out to a single cat home and he didn't do well, so he came back.

I said that I was interested, because I'd wanted littermates and Jingles claimed Mom as his. So at this point, Dad really had no choice. He looked at a Maine Coon, but the two cats were hanging around me and Mom. He asked for the papers, the shelter called the vet's office for references, and we got two cats for $50 because it was buy one, get one free. They also threw in dry cat food, a cat bed, and some toys.

Right now, they've apparently decided my room is home base. Mittens is curled up next to me and her brother Jingles is under the bed. They alternate which one is on the bed, although Jingles seems to prefer being underneath.

I'm glad we adopted them and saved two lives, but I still miss Belle. And I wasn't ready to adopt another cat. I feel a little torn. These cats are so loving, adorable, and sweet. They're also energetic and lively. But...they're not Belle. God, I loved that cat.

I'm going to end this now before I start tearing up again.

Reading List 2013

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Reading Challenge 2013
(A) Angelfall by Susan Ee
(B) The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
(C) Cyteen by C.J. Cherryh

4. A Storm of Swords by George R. R. Martin (didn't finish)
(D) Daughter of Smoke and Bone by Laini Taylor
(E) Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Froer
(F) Fuse by Julianna Baggott
(G) Gone by Michael Grant
(H) Huntress by Malinda Lo
(I) The Immortal Rules by Julie Kagawa
(J) Evil Genius by Catherine Jinks
(K) Kill Alex Cross by James Patterson
(L) Artemis Fowl: The Last Guardian by Eoin Colfer
(M) Miss Peregrine's House for Peculiar Children
(N) A Turn of Light (Marrowdell): Night's Edge: Julie E. Czerneda (it was so long I had to use it for N. -_-)
(O) Requiem by Lauren Oliver
(P)Protector by C.J. Cherryh
(Q) Queen of the Slayers Troubled Waters by Sharon Shinn (replacement-- I gave up on QotS)
(R) Regenesis by C.J. Cherryh
(S) The Bartimaeus Trilogy: The Amulet of Samarkand by Jonathan Stroud
(T) Days of Blood and Starlight by Laini Taylor
(U) Unwind by Neal Shusterman
(V) Vortex by Julie Cross
(W) World War Z by Max Brooks
(X) The Fault in Our Stars by John Green (replacement for X)
(Y) The Yiddish Policeman's Union Falling Kingdoms by Morgan Rhodes (replacement for Y)
(Z) The Zodiac Paradox by Christina Faust (Fringe book)

(outside of the list and or read after the list was done)
1. Genius Squad by Catherine Jinks
2. Hunger by Michael Grant
3. Seraphina by Rachel Hartman
4. N0S4A2 by Joe Hill
5. Diary of a Wimpy Kid by Jeff Kinney

6. Comatos by Spider N. Mann
7. Furies of Calderon by Jim Butcher

8. Academ's Fury by Jim Butcher
9. Captain's Fury by Jim Butcher
10. Golden Fool by Robin Hobb
11. The Sparrow and The Choice by Jason Mott (short stories)
12. The Shadow Cats and The King's Guard by Rae Carson (short stories/novellas)
13. Doctor Who: Touched by An Angel by Jonathan Morris
14. Genius Wars by Catherine Jinks
15. Clockwork Princess by Cassandra Clare
16. Sever by Lauren DeStefano
17. Room by Emma Donoghue
18. Captain's Fury by Jim Butcher
19. Princeps' Fury by Jim Butcher
20. Look Me in the Eye by John Eider Robinson
21. Surviving Your Stupid, Stupid Decision to Go to Grad School by Adam Ruben
22. The Transfer (short story) by Veronica Roth
23. Free Four (short story) by Veronica Roth
24. The Shattered Mountain (novella) by Rae Carson
25. The Fifth Wave by Rick Yancy
26. Dust by Arthur Slade
27. Proxy by Alex London
28. When You Reach Me by Rebecca Stead
29. The Looking Glass Wars by Frank Beddor
30. The Knife of Never Letting Go by Patrick Ness
31. The Adventure Time Encyclopedia by Martin Olson
32. The Raven Boys by Maggie Stiefvater
33. The House of Hades by Rick Riordan
34. The Dream Thieves by Maggie Stiefvater
35. Allegiant by Veronica Roth
36. More Than This by Patrick Ness
37. The Billionaire's Curse by Richard Newsome
38. My Trouble is My English by Danling Fu
39. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban by J. K. Rowling
40. The Demon King by Cinda Williams Chima
41. I Am Number Four by Pittacus Lore
42. The Rise of Renegade X by Chelsea M. Campbell
43. Doctor Who: The Silent Stars Go By by Dan Abnett
44. Son of Sobek (short story) by Rick Riordan
45. The Witch's Murder by Eric Flint (short story)
46. Burdens of the Dead by Mercedes Lackey, Eric Flint, and Dave Freer
47. A Wrinkle in Time by Madeline L'Engle
28. Michael Vey: Prisoner of Cell 25 by Richard Paul Evans
29. Downbelow Station by C.J. Cherryh
30. Firebrand by Gillian Philip

Jul. 11th, 2013

Epiphany idiot friend, in all her glory, decided to say this to me when I told her I was depressed:

why are you always tired!! maybe cuz ur not doing anything

So I have this poem (which is a rough draft and needs editing) to counter my anger at it.

Depression is the monster in your head
Depression is the creature lurking in your bed
Depression looks at your life and shrugs, saying, “Other people have it worse.”
Depression says, “No matter what happens to you, it’s just par for the course.”

Depression keeps you awake at night, afraid to sleep
Depression keeps you tired during the day, unable to think too deep
Depression steals away your concentration, your focus
Depression says, “Oh, everything you are and care about? Just tokens.”

Depression and anxiety go hand in hand, they say
Why worry tomorrow what you can worry about today?
Depression will always be there waiting, lurking in the dark
After all, depression knows exactly where you end and where you start

Depression is not being sad one day or even a week
Depression is the black, black streak
Depression is not “you have nothing to be sad about!”
Depression is “there are too many obstacles for me to count”

Depression is your best friend and your worst enemy
Because depression becomes you and everything else it steals away


Dec. 31st, 2012

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Reading List 2012
1. The Declaration by Gemma Malley    1/03/12-1/05/12
2. Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone 1/15/12-1/16/12
3. The Remains of the Day by Kazuo Ishiguro 1/18/12-1/23/12
4. Deceiver by C.J. Cherryh                               1/06/12-1/24/12
5. Outlander by Diana Gabaldon                        1/25/12-2/1/12, 5/9/12
            Unfinished/gave up
6. Wise Children by Angela Carter                     1/30/12-2/6/12
7. The Rover by Aphra Behn                              2/02/12/-2/07/12
8. Betrayer by C.J. Cherryh                              2/03/12-2/08/12
9. Matched by Ally Condie                                2/09/12-2/13/12
10. Hana by Lauren Oliver                                2/14/12-2/15/12
11. Emily the Strange: The Lost Days              2/15/12-2/16/12 
12. Way of the World by William Congreve      2/9/12/-2/17/12                                     
13. Pure by Julianna Baggot                             2/17/12-2/21/12
14. Ingenious Pain by Andrew Miller                 2/12/12-2/22/12
15. The Miseducation of Cameron Post by Emily M. Danford   2/22/12-2/26/12 (gave up, heh...)
16. The Giant O'Brian by Hillary Mantel            2/27/12-3/3/12
17. Double Dexter by Jeff Lindsay                    2/27/12-3/7/12
18. Tempest by Julie Cross                              3/11/12-3/16/12
19. Last Orders by Graham Swift                     3/08/12-3/26/12
20. Stronghold by Melanie Rawn                     3/17/12-4/02/12
21. A Long Way Down by Nick Hornby            3/31/12-4/06/12
22. Noah's Castle by John Rowe Townsend    4/04/12-4/05/12
23. Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro           4/06/12-4/09/12
24. Gulliver's Travels by Jonathan Swift           4/04/12-4/11/12
25. Atonement by Ian McEwan                         4/12/12-4/24/12
26. Tomorrow is Today (short story) by Julie Cross 4/13/12-4/14/12
27. Mile 81 by Stephen King (short story)          4/12/12-4/13/12
28. Pandemonium by Lauren Oliver                   4/14/12-4/17/12
29. Fever by Lauren DeStefano                         4/18/12-4/23/12
30. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time 4/24/12-4/26/12
31. The Wind in the Keyhole by Stephen King     4/27/12-5/03/12
32. High Fidelity by Nick Hornby                           5/4/12-5/6/12
33. Percy Jackson and the Last Olympian by Rick Riordan          5/7/12-5/8/12
34. The Lost Hero by Rick Riordan                       5/9/12-5/15/12
35. The Son of Neptune by Rick Riordan              5/16/12-5/22/12
37. A Wolf at the Table by Augusten Burroughs    5/22/12-5/23/12
38. The Red Pyramid by Rick Riordan                  5/26/12-5/30/12
39. Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb                         5/31-6/11/12
40. Mad Ship by Robin Hobb                                6/12/12-6/21/12
41. Are You My Mother? by Alison Bechdel           6/21/12-6/22/12
42. Ship of Destiny by Robin Hobb                        6/24/12-7/05/12
43. The False Prince by Jennifer A. Nielsen           7/06/12-7/08/12
44. King's Dragon by Kate Elliott                           7/09/12-7/16/12
45. The Magicians by Lev Grossman                     7/17/12-7/24/12
46. Intruder by C.J. Cherryh                                  7/25/12-7/27/12
47. Another Pan by Daniel Nayeri                          7/28/12-7/31/12
48. Batman: Fear Itself by Michael Reaves            7/31/12-8/3/12
49. Kingdom of Cages by Sarah Zettel                   8/4/12-8/8/12
50. The Promise-Avatar: the Last Airbender           8/8/12-8/8/12
51. Fool's Errand by Robin Hobb                           8/8/12-8/18/12
52. Crossed by Ally Condie                                  8/8/12-8/11/12
53. The Promise Part 2: Avatar: the Last Airbender 8/9/12-8/9/12
54. City of Glass by Cassandra Clare                     8/19/12-8/31/12
55. Mistress of Dragons by Margaret Weis             9/01/12-9/06/12
56. The Dragon's Son by Margaret Weis                9/06/12-9/12/12
57. A Dirty Job by Christopher Moore                     9/13/12-9/18/12
58. Master of Dragons by Margaret Weis                9/18/12-9/24/12
59. I am a Dalek by Gareth Roberts                        9/24/12-9/24/12
60. Crime and Punishment by Dostoyevsky            9/10/12-9/28/12
61. The Milwaukee Murders by Don Davis              9/17/12-9/25/12
62. Ash by Malinda Lo                                             9/26/12-9/29/12
63. Graceling by Kristin Cashore                              9/30/12-10/3/12
64. The Blinding Knife by Brent Weeks                     10/5/12-10/20/12
65. Steppenwolf by Hermann Hesse                        10/2/12-10/10/12
66. Bind, Torture, Kill: The Inside Story of the Serial Killer Next Door by Hurst Laviana, L. Kelly, Roy Wenzl 10/13/12-11/7/12
67. The Trial by Franz Kafka                                   10/16/12-10/24/12
68. Doctor Who: The Clockwise Man by Justin Richards 10/21/22-10/23/12
69. The Mark of Athena by Rick Riordan                          10/24/12-10/30/12
70. Clockwork Angel by Cassandra Clare                          11/1/12-11/5/12
71. Clockwork Prince by Cassandra Clare                         11/5/12-11/14/12
72. Nadja by Andre Breton                                                  11/8/12-11/15/12
73. Heroes of Olympus: The Demigod Diaries by Rick Riordan    11/15/12-11/20/12
74. Defending Gary by Mark Prothero and Carlton Smith     11/21/12-11/29/12
75. The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera   11/22/12-12/6/12
76. Insurgent by Veronica Roth                                             11/22/12-12/1/12
77. The Racketeer by John Grisham                                     12/6/12-12/12/12
78. City of Fallen Angels by Cassandra Clare                        12/14/12-12/20/12
79. Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson                                     12/21/12-12/22/12
80. Bloodsucking Fiends by Christopher Moore                     12/23/12-12/26/12
81. How to Train Your Dragon by Cressida Cowell                 12/26/12-12/27/12
82. Percy Jackson: The Lightning Thief by Rick Riordan        12/27/12--
83. The Diviners by Libba Bray                                                12/28/12--

Oct. 18th, 2012

Fangirl moment

I don't remember the last time I was *this* obsessed with a song. I'm also so obsessed with Adventure Time, particularly Ice King/Simon Petrikov and Marceline thanks to "I Remember You". OMG.

Also...not much news. At least nothing I want to go into depth about. Damn it, I want more views for my AT one-shot.
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Supermarket employee with AK-47 kills two co-workers and self at Pathmark in Old Bridge, New Jersey 

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Jun. 15th, 2012

Blue blood Vriska
1.) Open Google. 2.) Search your LAST name, only your last name. 3.) Take the first picture that comes up. 4.)Put this on LiveJournal 5.) This is you in 30 years.

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I'm scared. 

Mar. 26th, 2012

I probably shouldn't have indulged the spam bot...but it amused me. And I needed to relax after doing homework/classes most of the day.

I really need to get dinner soon. Yep.Collapse )

Feb. 18th, 2012

Colbert in a speedsuit

Sources confirmed it was indeed Colbert's mother.

Comedian Stephen Colbert gets serious for mother: 'Colbert Report' on hold

Friday, 17 February 2012 16:01

colbertreportlogo021712_optBY BOB HOLT

On Wednesday and Thursday, Comedy Central suspended production of Montclair resident Stephen Colbert’s "The Colbert Report" program due to “unforeseen circumstances.”

Cancellation of the show’s tapings was announced at the last minute. According to the Hollywood Reporter, ticket holders were lined up at the Manhattan studio, and some had already been seated. Comedy Central sent an e-mail notifying ticket holders of the cancellation on Wednesday.

According to the New York Post, sources said Colbert shut down the show for his ailing 91-year-old mother Lorna. Colbert’s father James and two of his brothers were killed in the crash of an airliner in 1974 when Colbert was 10 years old, drawing the comic closer to his mother. He is the youngest of 11 children.

The Huffington Post reported that a person who has a business relationship with the show said that Colbert’s mother is seriously ill, and "The Colbert Report" will remain shut down until he is able to return.

Sources said they are a very private family, and didn’t find it surprising that Colbert did not want anyone to know what was happening.

Third Beat reported that Colbert had a perfect attendance record at his show before this week, and "The Daily Show" has only canceled tapings on two occasions in its history. One cancellation occurred when New Jersey native Jon Stewart’s second child was born, and another when a staff member died.

He tweeted this last night:

My family and I would like to thank everyone who has offered their thoughts and prayers. We are grateful and touched by your concern.

Remembering Stephen is an immensely private man and almost never posts anything serious on his Twitter, this is pretty big. And any time, hun. I only wish I (and the rest of Colbert Nation) could do more. Although donating to your SuperPAC is out. :P

Poor Stephen...

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EDIT: And to the person who commented on a news piece similar to this saying, "Colbert goes to care for his sick mother...I mean niece...I mean girlfriend..." You can rot in hell, asshole.

I tweeted at him a couple times, as I'm sure countless people have done. I hope everything turns out all right.

Dec. 16th, 2011

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Discovered my old VHS tape from Hanson's concerts. 14 years old. OMG YOU GUYS HANSON. OMG. *giggles insanely*

No, I haven't cracked from the pressure. XDD 

Also, have some fails courtesy of MSU:

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Montclair State's famous!

Guilmon Takatomon
OMG MSU can has internetz fame!

This is the picture I took in Dickson and...

*This* is the article linked from The Daily What-

Colbert in a speedsuit

What is your favorite holiday carol or song?

View 798 Answers

Oh, like any of you were surprised.

I feel so bitter and angry right this fits...

Oct. 6th, 2011

Jack and Daniel Huh by not-a-zatarc
Pottermore sorted me into Slytherin.


Sep. 5th, 2011


This is what I wish I could do right now.

Jun. 19th, 2011

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Colbert's commencement speech at Northwestern- there are some technical glitches throughout, so you know. XD Fail capturer is fail.

 Also, Happy Father's Day. :)

Jun. 5th, 2011

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 So...I was dicking around on James's FB profile when this happened:

It still amuses me. XDCollapse )

Jun. 2nd, 2011

You're on my list
 On a completely unrelated note...LulzSec and Sony are starting to epically piss me off.

"Greetings folks. We're LulzSec, and welcome to Sownage. Enclosed you will
find various collections of data stolen from internal Sony networks and websites,
all of which we accessed easily and without the need for outside support or money.

We recently broke into and compromised over 1,000,000 users'
personal information, including passwords, email addresses, home addresses,
dates of birth, and all Sony opt-in data associated with their accounts.
Among other things, we also compromised all admin details of Sony Pictures
(including passwords) along with 75,000 "music codes" and 3.5 million "music coupons"."

LulzSec releases Sony usernames, passwords
By Hayley Tsukayama

Hacker group LulzSec, as promised, posted information it took from Sony Entertainment and Sony BMG.

The information, which includes about a million usernames and passwords of customers in the U.S., the Netherlands and Belgium, is available for download and posted on the group’s site.

A release posted on LulzSec’s page said that the group has more information, but that it can’t afford to fully copy all of the information it stole. The group also said that none of the information it took from Sony was encrypted.

1,000,000+ unencrypted users, unencrypted admin accounts, government and military passwords saved in plaintext. #PSN compromised. @SonyThu Jun 02 20:17:40 via webThe Lulz Boat

“Our goal here is not to come across as master hackers, hence what we're about to reveal: was owned by a very simple SQL injection, one of the most primitive and common vulnerabilities, as we should all know by now,” the group wrote, “From a single injection, we accessed EVERYTHING. Why do you put such faith in a company that allows itself to become open to these simple attacks?”

The group is not believed to be involved in the Sony breaches that resulted in 77 million user accounts being compromised in April, and has denied that it has ever attacked the PlayStation Network.